Smile only for you

So many visions, so many desires, so much peace, so much joy.

kiss

Knowing there aren't words to describe anything I feel about him is wonderful.

Worldly things sux

So tonight was so powerful we made crosses and then laid on them while Christ's story was read. SO SO powerful but afterwards at Christ candle half of my group had cell phones out and were laughing. Not only were they not supposed to have cell phones on in the first place but seriously if it wasn't powerful for you then at least let the people who it was powerful for reflect on it. I swear sometimes high schoolers should be treated like middle schoolers like they got their cell phones actually taken away. I think we should've too because obviously they can't handle it. Argh. But wow hearing all the hammers then hitting it urself. Then placing one of your sins on the nails representing the ones that pierced His hands and feet. WOW! Then laying on the cross with ur hands out (I even had my hair clip in poking my head) Man it hurt! My hands were cold my abs hurt from trying to not put my head down on the clip I was crying so it was hard to breath. I kept thinking this is just a small small taste of what He felt and wow not comfortable. Then when Kelly read the part where the people that knew not of Jesus wept but those closest to Him just watched and no longer wept but understood what happened. Then I just stopped crying and was at peace. God is so amazing I can't describe it. We were asked to explain this experience in Christ candle but I couldn't speak and I didn't want to. Those people wouldn't have gotten what I wanted to say not that it's something you can put into words anyway. I mean I can describe it here but it doesn't even come close to the thoughts in my head and the feelings and emotions I was led to. So yeah that's my deal on that.

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I have so many questions you don't wanna answer.
I wish this were easier, but anything easy usually isn't worth the effort.
When I look into your eyes I can't explain what I see but I think you know.
I don't want to leave anymore, I want to know I'll be here with you.
I never say it but I think you are wonderful.
I try to hide it but you make me smile.
I can't wait to dream of us again, and then to live those dreams.
I'll see you when I get back.

You

It was so wonderful just a few hrs. with you. The way you make me feel when you look into my eyes, Your gentle touch, your strength where I know I'm safe, everything. It's so much like the fairy tales, like ones dreams, everything like it "should" be. I can't stop thinking about it. All I want to do is give you everything though I know that's probably not a good idea. I wish I would've done what you asked of me but I know that if I did I would have done something I shouldn't have. As I feel the cool air and look at the sky, I think about how I'd want you to be there enjoying it with me.

All I want is..... but I can't

All I want to do is talk to you but I can't
All I want to do is spend time with you but I can't
All I want to do is know you but I can't
All I want to do is be in your arms but I can't
All I want to do is let you know how I feel but I can't
All I want to do is know I can be with you but I can't.