ouch...

I know it's better but ouch. I wish it wasn't the way it is. I want to love, I want to talk, I want to be there. I really do pray this doesn't go anywhere but better than before I have this inner fear that it's going somewhere else. What would I do if that happend? My life would be totally turned upside down. I donno if I could go back to Joplin if that was the case. I guess if nothing else this is a glimps of what it might be like on a very small scale. I think I would be forced to journal alot. I have tonight already this being like the third time. I think I talk too much. But friends are wonderful especially those who offer to pray with you... Man I haven't had that in forever Definitely my God moment for the day.

So I have a pidgon who sits on my window ledge. He/She makes a mess there but it's kinda like my own personal pet. That I don't really get any of the cuddleing or cleaning but just something that's there. Not always so not annoying but Just there. Granted sometimes scares the poop out of me but that comes with hitting my window lol.

I like apples. They are yummy but sometimes they just hurt my tummy. I haven't figured out why that is but sometimes they just make it all upset... Sadness it was so yummy.

I think i should go out to grents, but room mate is not feeling well so I don't really wanna leave her alone but don't wanna disturb her either. .. And I would much rather just be with people tonight. maybe I'll go for a walk I have 3000ish steps to reach my 10,000 a day. Just fyi 2000ish were in aerobics lol. 500ish is just walking to class....

Well off to prayer shall ministry.. It was interesting to write again Ttfn