meet and greet

Well I was told I needed to update.... SOooo here it is.

I find it interesting that even though I'm so much more open that I ever was before I still keep people at a distance. I have a few friends here in Abilene but I definitely don't open up to them very much. I have had times in tears and times of utter joy that they have absolutely no clue about. Part of me wonders if it's just who I am hanging out with or if it's really something I should work on. I donno a big part of me wants to know that they first of all care at all about what I'm saying and if not then why talk? I guess I want them to ask and then I'll be happy to share. I know I don't always ask but then again I don't have a need to when they just share anyway. Part of this is my shy tendency, I really have never just told people about my day, what’s going on with me and various things like that without them asking or unless I know they want to know. Is that somehow wrong, or not the way to make friends? I feel like such an outcast a lot but at the same time I'm pretty sure I'm making myself an outcast because I don't share with them.

Another thing I've found interesting is that I haven’t really met anyone in about a week at least. I don't know anyone very well but without any assistance I haven’t met anyone in a while. Without being in that school just started everyone meet people mode I'm not totally sure I know how to meet people. I know I will this weekend when I go camping with my friend but again that’s with assistance. I donno.